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Friday, March 24th, 2006
7:44 am	I'm getting my belly button peirced today!!!!!!! WOOT WOOT! and my hair done! a la la la la la la life is wonderful.................(<- taken from a song by my hero, jason mraz) Lindsey sent me the greatest english chocolates! mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm today is going to be sooooo fun......after i find out how badly i did on my bus law test EEK! Current Mood: EXCITED (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 22nd, 2006
10:15 am	i want mac eyeliner hmmmmmmmmmmmmm yesterday was definetly a day at work to remember....im obsessed. its ridiculous. Let's see here.....my birthday is in 10 days WOOT WOOT. Dennis, this old guy that I work with, is planning my party for me on April 1st at a club called Time Out in Aliso Viejo ((not that any of you know where that is or anything, meh)). I'm so excited!!!! He was all sad though because he was going to get me a stripper, but when he called the club, they said that they don't allow strippers in there, which is sad, but the fact that Dennis even thought to do that is amazing! haha. This is going to be the weirdest party ever because there's going to be many old men since it's with everyone that I work with plus some of my other friends. I'm sooooo sooooo soooooo excited!!!!!!!!!! Oh I think I will post some pictures for you kids from my rumble in the jungle party and from Jen's visit. yes....i must. they are hot ;) Hawthorne Heights is really good. props to scott. ((<-- guy with small penis)).....p.s. Jen, he cut his hair and it looks WAAAAAAAAAAAYYYY cute I'm really looking forward to Friday....I have class til 1130 and then Arlette and I are going to get our hair done, and I'm going to get my belly button pierced and she is going to get a tattoo and then we have to take care of some personal things. And later on that night there are some other plans in the making I think....***crossing fingers***...I love Arlette! She has such a big heart and she's so beautiful but she doens't act like it you know? I hate when pretty girls are bitches. CLEARLY that's why Jen and I are so nice DAMNIT! hahaha. I'm way behind on sending birthday presents EXCEPT for Sarah's haha. However, I do still have to send her Christmas present...OOPS! SORRY BIZZLE!!! I will do it....eventually......... my aunt just gave herself cameltoe and ripped her pants in the process i just peed all over..... Life is funny. a little too funny......... scandals ROCK the house. okay i have to go be productive........ Current Mood: excited for friday (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 17th, 2006
1:50 am	WOAH! A lot has been going on. Um.....Jen came to visit me and got here last Saturday. Sunday I worked while she spent 9 hours at starbucks. SAD. Monday we went to Disneyland, the US vs. Korea baseball game, and over to my friend Tara's in San Clemente and did some drinkin'. Tuesday we shopped for 5 1/2 hours! HOLY SHOPPING BATMAN! It was crazy! I never thought Jen could last that long ;) haha. And she actually spent money! ANd bought a skirt. It weirded me out! But she looked hot in the skirt, so whatever!And I bought a bunch of stuff, too. Damnit. I tried to be good, it didn't work out so well. Wednesday we slept til noon, were lazy bastards, and then Jen, Tara, and I went to play Bingo at the Elk Club and we were definetly the youngest people there! Which is perfect since I have a fetish for older men anyways......only, these guys were OLD OLD. Then we got drunk at Tara's again. Thursday Rose came and picked up Jen and we went to Wendy's, and then she left :(. I cried. (p.s. Rose call me this week ho!) Oh my goodness, I have my period soooooo bad right now. I didn't leave my house once I got back from eating. I ust layed around and napped and played on my computer. pretty pathetic huh? I was too lazy to call my friends back. Meh. I have soooo much homework that I was supposed to get done over break and haven't done any of it. It's pretty sad. So when I wake up for the day today I will be doing some before I go to work. I think I am going mud wrestling on Saturday and super excited for that! And I am getting my hair done next week with Arlette and I am getting my belly button pierced. SUPER SUPER SUPER EXCITED! My dad is in Illinois right now ((for those of you who don't know, my dad moved to Texas last June)) and it made me sad that he didn't tell me sooner that he was going to visit, because I would have liked to go back for the weekend and spend it with my family. It sucks when your family is spread out in 3 different states. But I got to talk with him and my sister and my dad's wife and I am just glad that they are all having a good time visiting. My friend Steve sent me a DVD of my brother's Rolling Stones cover band and a greeting from my mom, brother, and stepdad! It was the cutest thing ever! I'm so lucky that I have amazing friends back home. UUuuuuummmmm, oh so I have to tell u guys this story ((sorry Jen, you have heard it already)). So at work, the sales goal of carpet specialists is $122 an hour. I pulled up my actual sales, and I was at $519 an hour! How fucking sweet is that? I hope they give me a huge raise when my review comes around! So I showed the sales to my supervisor, and today happened to be inventory day so the Division Manager was at our store, and my supervisor brought me to him introduced me as the best carpet specialist that we have. I was so excited. It totally made my day. Well, besides the fact that I got to see Charlie today...mmmmmmm. It's 2 am.....you know what is on tv right now? Baywatch. What the hell? I didn't know that people still watched the reruns of this show. SO here I am, watching it. It's such a terrible show! The drama is sooo not even real drama. 15 days til my 21st birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Shannon, I was going to overnight ur package, but it would have cost me like $45, so I said HELL NO BIZNITCH! And I spent a whole dollar and something cents for you to get it in 4 days. Sorry I didn't send it to you earlier. I suck at life. You all already know this. I'm really happy right now. Like, really happy. Just wanted to share that with you...... Current Mood: can't sleep! (Comment on this)
Friday, March 10th, 2006
10:44 pm	fuck you you made me feel like shit today, but i will never tell you...... i hate that i let you do this to me. p.s. to make things worse andred and chris both called me within like 2 minutes of eachother to tell me that they miss me......i miss them. i think we are all long lost brothers....who have made out. weird. Current Mood: shitty (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 9th, 2006
1:13 pm	this is pointless hola kids! sorry it has taken me FOREVER to update! I have been soooo sooo soooooo busy. My friends out here are quite demanding and with school and work it like never ends! I swear, these kids out here are amazing. Jen comes in 2 days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I miss my dad. 23 days til my birthday. Rose call me, cuz I have a feeling that you need to talk to someone and I feel like I can help you. I have a sort of stalker who makes me jewelry and buys me concert tickets and lunch. I so blatantly tell him that I don't like him too, and its like he doesnt care! It's crazy. He is taking me in a limo to see Fall Out Boy, Hawthorne Heights, and All-American Rejects. Super excited! I miss Margaret...honey, we have a lot to catch up on! I will try an e-mail you soon! EHEM...Mike, I miss you too love! I am becoming very girly....just warning you jen! Ummmm Pete moved out here....remember the cousins cousin? Yeah...he moved to California. That doesn't make things awkward or anything...OH WAIT. yes it does. DAMNIT. I haven't had bacon since last saturday, that's almost a record! I went to McDonald's yesterday and asked for a lot of mayonnaise for my fries "because I'm a hog" and the guy didn't speak english and tilted his head and said "yes". SO it's ofiicial...I'm a fuckin hog because the guy agreed with me...BASTARD. I have a HUGE paper due in 2 and a half hours and I'm done with it, but I just have no motivation to go to class. 6 hours of night class will do this to you. I need a nap now and then I have to shower and go to class, where I will gawk at my econ teacher and then leave my cim class early cuz the old people who cant use computers really piss me off.... LATER KIDS. (Comment on this)
Monday, February 20th, 2006
5:18 pm	um.......i got nothing so im sitting in the cutest little cafe by my house, and i have been here for 4 hours attempting to work on a paper for economics but i am getting nowhere. i came here so that i would not go on the internet since i would have to connect to it myself, but i ended up losing my will power and connecting t it anyways. DAMNIT. at least they have the best chai tea lattes here so that i can immerse myself in them. and they have free refills and the boy here is adorably nice hence i will be here a ittle while longer. i hate econ. i hate my lack of determination lately. i feel like i have put so much effort into this damn paper, but have gotten nowhere. i have to meet with my teacher tomorrow at 230 about my paper with a really really really good rough draft. i will be lucky enough if i even have a rough draft, let alone one that he will cosider superb. well what the hell, he is going to be hard to please because he has written (wrote?) 6 books himself and is pretty much a genius. I want to impress him cuz I am smart, but for some reason I am not letting myself be. I am retarded I think. and i love how quiet this place is since i am basically the only one in here. this weekend was lame. peope bother me. a lot. at least my uncle made the best jello shots for me EVER. mmmmm they were like candy. it was just him and i this weekend and he spoiled me with good food and liquor. I feel bad because i was crabby. like ridiculously crabby. and he went out of his way for me like he usually does. :(. I am an asshole. Jen comes in a few weeks! WOOT! i'm obsessed with "hold me down" by motion city soundtrack. i can't help it. 40 days til i turn 21....SAWEET! so i have changed. and people would be disappointed if they saw me, but oh well. rose, i completely understand what you are going thru dear. and i am oober sorry that i didn't call you.....work is a bitch. and so am i. thus, i suck at life and we will hang soon i promise i promise. i will try my best to call u asap. once this damn paper gets written then i will have more time to hang. lame is my favorite word. maybe because it describes me, i don't know. ALSO mayonaise and bacon is the best combination ever. i am obsessed. as if you couldn't tell. i don't love you. get over it already. criminy cripes batman. Current Mood: blank (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 14th, 2006
10:00 am	i've been really uninspired lately. not even jason mraz has been inspiring me. weird. whats even worse is that neither has food. and you know its really bad when food hasn't been inspiring me. dawsons creek was lame today happy vagina day nigs. i need to go study at a cafe and then work 2-8. lates. (Comment on this)
Monday, February 13th, 2006
10:02 pm	i'm lame wow, it's been awhile. so let's see. I have been 100% wrapped up in school. 18 units is a bitch. I feel bad because I haven't really had any time to return peoples' phonecalls (sorry carrie, i love you and i will callu soon I PROMISE!)or letters. I bring my homework out with me whenever I am hangin with Brandon or the boys, even though they make fun of me. I haven't had time to go to L.A. to see Rose either, and that's sooo sad :(. I broke up with Diego because his vagina is bigger than my mom's, and she's had 4 kids...translation for you idiots: he's a woman. Um.....I have become completely obsessed with mayonnaise. Like it's ridiculous. I eat it whenever i get the chance. It's so bad for you, but it's so damn good. I got really drunk on Saturday at Tara's in San Clemente....I love San Clemente. It is my favorite beach...and the town is pretty cute. Tara's husband is in the military and he goes to Iraq this summer and I told her that I would stay with her so 1) she would not be lonely and 2) so I could walk from her apartment to the beach! haha. Captain Morgans and Creme Soda is my new favorite drink. I studied and studied for my calculus test last week and got a 58% on it. Sad I know. I was surprised though, I was literally expecting a 12%. I must have gotten pity points. But I have a tutor now who bought me a calculator and calculus for dummies. Pray to everything you see that I pass this damn class. I haven't had a crush on anyone in a long time. It's gotten pretty sad actually that I see all of these hot boys and no crush. But I have been leaning more towards considering it a blessing because there is not time in my life for any man except for the one that I am trying to spend time with: my father. I have been looking at the past and regretting a lot of my actions towards my family when we all lived in one state. And I know that I shouldn't do this because it makes me so sad, to the point where I burst into tears. So I called him crying and left him a mesage telling him that i miss him and that I want to see him so we need to plan a trip for me to go visit him in texas. He never called back. So if you guys ever wondered why I have issues, there you go. My life is lame. L-A-M-E. Valentine's Day is tomorrow. That's gross. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, January 28th, 2006
12:19 am	people make me smile, cry, laugh, frustrated, but all in all, who I am...... woah its been awhile since i updated last.....let's see....I went back to Illinois January 20th-24th, even though m flight was almost cancelled because of the snow storm in chicago, which turned out to be only like 4-5 inches. WOOPTY FRIGGIN DOO. Some pilots are babies I guess. Eli and Julio picked me up and we got Taco Bell (sooooo gooooood), & went to Mike's and partied. We had a snowball fight and I got to make a snow angel and it was soooo great! I lost really bad, but it was still fun! I also got to be the first pair of boobs that Julio had ever seen, so of course I made him touch them! haha And he thought that they were nice. So I said, "Oh honey, that's because their your first pair, trust me there's much nicer out there" hehe. Its only funny cuz its true. Saturday I got to spend the night with my 2 sisters, my brother, mom, and stepdad. It was so nice to see Mara (the older sister) again. I hadn't seen her since June :(. Her new house in Manhattan is adorable. So is my neice. And I got to see Dan!! It was glorious. I love him and his girlfriend and his mom and his sister. And I love that they make time for me. Sunday my sister made breakfast, and if you know my sister, you know that she didn't cook for about 26 years of her life, so it was exciting to eat something that wasn't from a box. haha. Then we went up to my mom's in Rockton and my other family members came to hang out and I got to play Twister with my sister, the Steve's, and my brother and it was a good time. I really have missed Steve a lot. Him and I have the weirdest connection EVER. My little sister, Brianna, is so good on the piano! It's amazing and makes me so proud! Monday I got dropped off at Woodfield mall by my mom and sister. I cried. Go figure. I always do. Thank God Mike picked me up and let me be a baby! Then he took me to Menards to see my favorite people: Margaret, Mike, Mostafa, Matt, and Mario. Woah that's weird, their all M names. That place just doesn't seem nearly as fun anymore, it makes me sad to go visit it. Then Mike and I napped together, went to Doggie Diner, and then I went to Chris' house. Oh dear. Why do I still have more fun with him than I should? He tried to teach me calc and about exchange rates. It didn't so much work with calc, but that's okay. I need to clone him. I swear, I need like 12 more people like him in m life....without teh whole dumping me for another girl aspect. And Andrew came home and it was awkward/nice/i don't know...frustrating. I just wish that him and I could have actually talked about things, instead of acting like idiots. Then Mike had another party for me. Tuesday I shopped, ate, and hung out with Komal. It was glorious. I was like "Komal why have we never donethis before?" and she said "Cuz you were always with Jen" I. AM. AMUSED. I cried more saying bye at Mike's and when Eli dropped me off at the airport. I love going home, but it's so bittersweet. I could write on and on about more things but they will bore or depress you so I won't. Wednesday was Arlett's birthday, and Brandon got a condo in Laguna Beach for the night. It was amazing. Sometimes you meet people who you just want to talk to forever and ever, but you have to leave because the guy (Diego) you are sort of dating is being a drunken fool and you don't want to deal with him and his emotional bullshit. And by sometimes, I mean that's what happened around 3 am. I was really enjoying myself, and my convo with Rob. Damnit. Then there was the talk on teh stairs with Diego (they boy) I can't help that I don't need you. I can't help that I don't want to spend every minute with you. I can't help that I like meeting new people. I can't help that I don't want to kiss you in front of everyone when I'm in the middle of telling a story. I can't help that you have clearly started to want something more serious than what I want out of our reltaionship, if you would even considerate that. I can't help it that I'm busy and when I do get time to myself I want to relax. I can't help it that you got mad at me for not returning a phonecall. I can't help it that I don't like to be smothered, and that's exactly what you do. I can't help that I really don't see this going anywhere because I don't want it to. Why don't I want it to? Something is missing. He's a great guy, but something is missing and I don't know what it is, but I'm not going to try and make myself feel things for you that might not come. Ugh, So yeah, that's basically it. Classes Wednesday and Thursday from 4-10p suck, as well as Friday morning from 9-12. I called in sick to work today so that I could study and do research. I better get straight damn A's this semester. I even stayed home tonight when I really wanted to go out and party. DAMNIT. People need to decide what role they want me to play in their lives and then inform me of it. People need to not confuse me so much. People need to not have red hair. People need to not make me broken promises. People need to understand the drame they bring to my life, because you definitely don't understand and I am not even going to try to explain it to you because I feel like all I have done for the past month is tell you things that I should just keep to myself. People need to listen to Something Corporate more often. People need to eat more pie because it's DELICIOUS. muah. Current Mood: tired (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, January 16th, 2006
12:31 am	I like you sort of.......???? Okay so Friday I went on another date with him....and why does he have to be so sweet? He opens my doors for me, he keeps me warm when I don't dress warm enough, he holds my hand during dinner, he was comfortable around my family, and ugh. I was almost convinced that I wanted to be with him because I had such a good time, and then Saturday night was weird. I think he pouts more than me and is way more of a woman than me sometimes((not that that is very hard or anything because let's be honest, I am a man)). I understand why he gets frustrated with me because I have been so busy the past few weeks that I spend very little time with him, if any, and if I had really tried I could have made time for him, but I just don't want to. I feel bad since I am so confused, but I'm giving him a chance, that's got to count for something right? I constantly do this though....it's ridiculous. It's not that I don't like nice guys, I just feel like something is missing...... OH. So Andrew asked me yesterday if him and I are still fighting. We haven't spoke in almost 2 months....not because we are fighting though, but because we just used to take out all of our frustrations out on eachother and our relationship became totally stressful and full of unnecessary drama. I told him that we needed space, and at first I was doing okay, and then every once in a while I would miss him so much. ((It's a good thing that I deleted his number so I didn't end up drunk dialing him.)) But I don't know what to do....I don't know if I am ready to talk to him. It's not that I wouldn't like to, it's more of I don't want to become the same person that I was when I would talk to him or think about him. You know? I'm hoping that I won't, but I guess we will see....the ball is not in my court...... I go back to visit IL in 4 days......that's hot ;) I have an assload of homework that I need to do before then.....EW. Jen is my reason for staying sane. Rose & Hyedi, I'm so glad you're going to be in LA when I get back from IL! I am excited! I so have a lesbian crush hehehe WEIRD p.s. I just got this text from Steve Olson: "You're coming to Rockton on Sunday? Are you ready for some freaky sex?" I am intrigued/nervous/giggling/disgusted/anxious to see him again.. Wow, sorry that that post was all about boys.....okay now I will be posting a blocked entry....HOLLAR! Current Mood: okay (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, January 9th, 2006
3:41 pm	I ride in the passenger seat.... I'm done having to take the back seat to her/them. Your so shady it's riduculous. I'm not you're fallback. I'm not here to be put second against anyone. I'm here for you, and you don't take the same role in my life. Why you make me cancel my plans to hang out with you is lame. Why I do it make me even more lame. Why I put up with it is beyond me...... If you can't tell I'm mad...you know why? Becuase Brandon and Francois are really pissing me off today. LAME. Their too blinded to even see it. Why I have to sit here and listen to all of their problems and then have them treat me so badly sometimes is all going to stop. I'll remember all of these things next time you need someone....well, I say that, but with my memory you all know I will forget.....DAMNIT arg. that is all. Current Mood: cranky (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, January 6th, 2006
11:04 pm	hmmmmmm............ So I have been thinking about last night, and I love the way that you hold my face when you kiss me. And how you tried to wake me up so delicately because you didn't want to scare me. Is that a weird thing to appreciate? Probably, but meh. However, I still have not decided if I really want to make this go any further or not. I know that you would treat me like a princess, and I won't dispute that one. I know that you would be good for me, but I don't know if I really want to. For now though, I'm having fun with you. I guess it takes a lot of convincing for me to settle on someone when they have feelings for me back because it freaks me out. My heart has not convinced me yet, but damn it's sure trying. This is what I do, I move on too fast, with a few exceptions. Why don't I let these things happen to me? MAYBE it's because something is missing, but I can't quite put my finger on it.....either way, I'm curious to find out, so with that said, I will see you tomorrow...... p.s. i want to have sex with gavin degraw and jason mraz....at the same time. ***keeping my fingers crossed*** I'll keep you updated on that one. Current Mood: wondering y i'm resisting this (Comment on this)
3:13 pm	"Here By Me" -3 Doors Down "I hope you’re doing fine out there without me 'Cause I'm not doing so good without you The things I thought you'd never know about me Were the things I guess you always understood So how could I have been so blind for all these years I guess I only see the truth through all this fear of living without you And everything I have in this world And all that I'll ever be It could all fall down around me Just as long as I have you right here by me I can’t take another day without you 'Cause, baby, I could never make it on my own I've been waiting so long just to hold you And to be back in your arms where I belong I'm sorry I can't always find the words to say But everything I've ever known gets swept away Inside of your love And everything I have in this world All that I'll ever be It could all fall down around me Just as long as I have you right here by me As the days roll on I see Time is standing still for me When you’re not here I’m sorry I can’t always find the words to say Everything I’ve ever known gets swept away Inside of your love x2 And everything I have in this world And all that i'll ever be It could all fall down around me Just as long as I have you right here by me" That song made me think about a lot of things today. It used to fit us to a T, and look where we are now.....interesting. It's a good song anyways. Love Sandy Current Mood: indifferent (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 4th, 2006
10:43 pm	"I know I don't know you, but I want you sooooooooooooo bad" ~Maroon5 I love that you love my honesty. I love that you make me laugh. I love that at the movies last night you gave me goosebumps. I love your accent. I love that you let me listen to country in your car without hesitation and that you gave me my own station on your radio. I love that you kiss me at stoplights. I love how you say my name. I love that you make me laugh. ((yes, I already said that, but it's amazing)) I love that you make me blush. I love that you think I'm beautiful. ((CLEARLY he's blind)) I love your massages. I love that you listen. I love that you put your arm around me all the time. I love that you offered me your jacket. I love that you look deeper in my eyes than anyone ever has. I love that you come to visit me. I love that you don't think I'm fat, you think my stomach is hard as steel. ((CLEARLY you've never touched steal)) I love that you make fun of me. I love that I am comfortable with you. I love that you know my expectations and make fun of me for having them. I love your texts. I love how real you are. I love that you are a romantic. I love that you try to protect me. this could be something great, if i decide to let it.....So, yeah. Let me just say, I'm sort of scared because I really think that I could care about this one, and I have only known him a few weeks. But I'll know more later......and keep you posted. Current Mood: embarrassed that i want this (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, January 2nd, 2006
4:42 pm	I'm a hater I hate that I keep things to myself because I don't like sharing a lot of things with people. I hate that I get so annoyed easily. I hate looking in the mirror. I hate listening to the same stories over and over and over again. I hate that I've needed a haircut for a really long time but I'm too lazy to go and get one. I hate that I get too lazy to keep in touch with people. I hate that Brandon has made a bet about me. I hate when people think that they know me. I hate the sound of your voice. I hate that I need braces. I hate that I have no eyelashes. I hate that I'm 100% in love with Dawson's Creek. I hate when people have cameltoe. I hate that you're spoiled beyong belief. I hate when shoes squeak, ESPECIALLY when their not wet. I hate shallow people. I hate long sideburns. I hate when a good song ends. I hate the smell of onions. I hate Cingular. I hate the my cartilege piercings and nose piercing are all closed :( I hate that people cannot keep promises for the life of them. I hate that people can't stick to their guns. I hate that I am the butt of so many jokes. I hate cats. I hate your hypocrisy. I hate that my room always has a weird smell to it no matter what I do. I hate that I'm not a superhero. I hate that no matter what, all you do is judge me. I hate when people wear black belts with brown shoes or vice versa. I hate unibrows. I hate listening to you tell me all about your feelings for her because it makes me jealous that no one thinks the same about me. And also because everyone loves her, what makes you so different? Damnit, I love her too. hahahaha. Wow, you al must be really confused about that one.....OH WELL. I hate uncooked tater-tots. that is all for now folks...... Current Mood: dorky (2 Comments |Comment on this)
1:34 pm	and the word your looking for is......anyway [NICE TO MEET YOU] ANYWAY [G. DeGRAW] "I don't want to get too close I don't want to get too close You see this isn't where my head is If you knew me I'm not like this But I just found someone special And that's really something special If you knew me Nice to meet you anyway I believe you're very fine Still, I haven't got the time 'Cause I just found someone special And that's really something special If you knew me Nice to meet you anyway And the sky opened up With the soil of the sun Dreaming of my true love I don't mean to be so strange But my life just took a change 'Cause I just found someone special And that's really something special If you knew me Nice to meet you anyway And the sky opened up With the soil of the sun Dreaming of my true love So before this goes too far Let me tell you what you are You're amazing, I'm attracted But I'm terribly distracted And I'm trying to be verbal And I'm back into this circle Because I just found someone special And that's really something special If you knew me Nice to meet you Nice to meet you Nice to meet you anyway Nice to meet you anyway And even if you want me to stay here I'm telling you right now I should leave Before I get to changing my mind, dear I hope you understand what I mean" my interpretation of this song brings me sanity because it is me in a nutshell. Current Mood: curious (Comment on this)
Friday, December 23rd, 2005
10:34 am	rambling is allowed. so there aren't any sheets on my bed because they are getting washed and i didn't sleep very well last night. whether or not it is because there are sheets in my bed really has nothing to do with it, just thought i'd let you know. i need a new wardrobe, my clothes bore me. ALSO I HATE THE PEPTO BISMAL COMMERCIAL WHERE THEY HAVE THE BALLERINAS. I WANT TO GOUGE OUT MY EYES EVERYTIME IT COMES ON. Margaret, I got your xmas card and i love it! Especially what you wrote about the Hagel drama....haahahahahaha. I sent yours the day before I got the one you sent me so you should get it soon. my heart is not dependable. that's because you screw with my head. i appreciate the depot. it amuses me. as do my coworkers. what does any of this have to do with anything? NOTHING. sometimes i ramble..... (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 12th, 2005
10:17 pm	ehem......hi, how are you? OKAY, so holy a lot has been going on batman's and I apologize for not updating more. Um....I'm still caught up in fucking Hagel drama that I continue to let myself get into, even though I know that it is one of the worst possible things that I can do to myself. I came up with a solution, which I'm not sure if I am strong enough to do as of yet, or as of November 3rd WHEN I GET TO COME HOME!! After I updated last week, my mom called and told me that her and my Grandma are paying for a plane ticket for me to come home. I peed all over. Twice. I have gained a new appreciation for this guy Francois that I work with. (Is pronounced France-waa. waa-like waddle, get it) he rocks the house. I've been training a lot lately and haven't spent too much time at my actual store with the old people, but I have learned a lot. Okay, so let me just tell you how great the past 3 days have been. First off I have decided that I want a used car because I want to be able to spend money. I have found a 2002 Jetta that is gorgeous and I will be testdriving that tomorrow (thursday). The best part is that my parents are giving me quite a chunk to change as a downpayment. Um....then, my trainer guy named Bud is amazing and so was everyone in my class. They all like to make fun of my accent GO FIGURE. Let me just explain something real quick. The building that I did my training in was in the city of Orange at the District Headquarters (or something like that). There are lots of different trainings, conventions, etc. going on there. So there are regular employees (like me) and then there are important people (soon to be me), you know like "big whigs". So getting back on track, during one of my breaks on Monday, I was in the cafeteria with some people from class, and they all started talking about my accent. This guy comes in from something else dressed al nice (cuz thats what important people do) and kind of stole me away from the conversation because he has family in Chicago and then you know, we just kept on talking. So I saw him again at lunch, and we talked a little bit more. Long story short, I kept running into him. He's cute, well, decent. He is older though, like late 20s early 30s. Beautiful blue eyes. A little heavier. And Money. I got a little crush, and then today, he asked for my number and e-mail. And he was like "oh well I go home tomorrow". I was all. "JIGGA?? I friggin thought you lived here!" but instead I said, "where's home?", and he said "SALT LAKE CITY". HULY UTAH BATMAN. I laughed and asked him if he was Mormon, and he was like "no, I'm a heathen. I plan on converting them all one by one, wife by wife". lol. He wanted to go out for dinner and I kind of blew him off because I have a huge midterm tomorrow that is a little more important. And I was just kind of cautious you know? So I just checked my e-mail, and OMG.....read this kids.... "Dear Sandy, I wanted to take a moment to say thank you again for the wonderful smiles that you brought to my face these last few days. I have to say that I never expected a to feel so amazing because of a woman that I bumped into in the hall and at lunch a few times. I cannot honestly convey to you how nice it was to talk to you, to see you smile, and to hear your voice every day. Running into you was an exciting moment for me each day, and I found myself trying to time my schedule to coincide with yours most times. You seem like an amazing and intriguing woman, and I truly look forward to the opportunity to talk with you, and learn more about you. It meant a lot to me to get your phone # and email address, and I look forward to all that comes of this. I know that I live in Salt Lake, but I am here on a regular basis, and would love to see you and spend time with you when I am here. I would love to talk to you as well, as it seems to me that there are things in you that I could truly enjoy having in my life in whatever capacity you are comfortable doing so. You had a surprising, yet wonderful, impact on my life, and I just wanted to say thank you for being the woman that you are, and thank you for all of the ways that you make me feel each time I see you, talk to you, or most often, just think of you. Have a wonderful evening, and I hope that class goes well for you. I will try to call you this evening, and would love to meet up somewhere if we can. even if it means just grabbing a cup of coffee and talking for a while. Keep smiling, and know that I am thinking about you, and I will talk to you soon. Jason" HOLY GIGGLING BATMAN. ((p.s. Francois saw Adam West, the original Batman at a club 2 nights in a row. that completes my life)). Moving on, number 3) Bud's wife works doe Disneyland and we had a discussion about how I had never been there. Today before I left early to go to my political science class, he made a huge presentation and gave me 2 free tickets to Disneyland!!! How awesome is that?! OMG. I love it. Oh and I went to a carpet mill and saw how that was made....which is no fun to any of you, but for me it was oooh la la. Midterms got me stressed and I failed one already and will probably fail another one tomorrow. My tan is fading. Andrew is being a jerk. My face is breaking out. But you know what, this is my life, and I think I can deal with it. ALSO....Kristen comes out in a week. I'm so stoked. Butterflies are good when they come for the right person. And then there are the ones that I get from you, you FUCK. Current Mood: amused (10 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 21st, 2005
7:53 am	Woah, so it's been awhile. I guess the whole being bitched out by my mom on livejournal really did not entice me to update anymore. She makes me sick with her hypocrysy and idiocy. She has sent me e-mails asking me why I am mad at her and has called me way too much (but I don't aswer). You know how there are certain things that you think about yourself, and they're not good things as it is, so when someone else sees them and calls you out on these faults, it makes you sick? Yep, that's what my mom did. Now you can all see why I am so crazy....look at how my parents decide to treat me. Moving on...I have been feeling WAY better! Even though the Home Depot can be frustrating, it is fun. Except the town that it is in also has a very large retirement community called "Leisure World" (which we all like to call "Seizure World"). It has thousands and thousands of old people, and they all like to come to the Depot. I wish I had a camera b/c you should see how some of them dress!! It's so funny...but so cute at the same time. And they spend lots o money, and I like that in a person. MONEY. hehe. Although, there are not nearly as many hot boys at work than there were at Menards (they are mostly old or gay....seriously! and there is lots o lesbians ...ehem...SARAH), there are some cute ones. 2 in particular...YUMMY. One I thought was gay for the longest time, but yesterday was the first time I actually talked to him, and he was talking about his ex-g/f so I was like....hey baby want a new g/f?! He is so beautiful. The other one I can't tell if he's married or not, but holy cute...and great personality. But I haven't really felt comfortable there being myself around certain people because holy cliques! Meh, I'll deal. I am probably going to transfer soon anyways. Oh, and I met a boy named BJ a few weeks ago who is WAY cute, but we keep playing phone tag...so one of these days maybe I'll have a story for you! MAYBE. I will be getting a car within the next two weeks, so that will be exciting! I want a Sebring convertible and I found a used 2002/2003 that I would be able to afford, but my uncle doesn't want me to get one I don't think cuz I can get a brand new car of some types (I don't remember what they were called, but I'll inform you on that later) that will be cheaper, with 5 years of maintenance free and better gas mileage. But I want a damn convertible! Oh well, like my aunt put it, I could buy the cheaper car for now, and save up for a better/newer convertible in a few years. Any advice misters? Um.....sometimes your life is better without hagel brothers all together. And sometimes, you just don't do anything about it, even though you should. I wrote all about it on my Myspace blog...... My aunt gets to go home to Chicago today for almost a week. I am WAY jealous. I want to come home in October sometime, but I just don't think that is going to happen. It breaks my heart. Well, that is my update for now, I have to go cram for a test that I'm taking in 7 hours.....wish me luck! Current Mood: meh... (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 8th, 2005
9:51 am	ehem. I wonder how this happens...... It's funny how things can change so quickly and for some it takes so much longer. How one day someone can give you butterflies, and the next day you absolutely find the person repulsive and can't even speak to them, and find it okay that you will never see that person ever again. I used to hope every night for you to call me, and of course you did because, let's be honest, who wouldn't want to talk to me?! ;). I would get so sad on the days we coudn't see each other and look forward to the days we had planned together, and towards the end there, I just gave up on us all together. What's weird is that you treated me better than most boys I know, yet somehow, I think that is what drove me away from you. You accepted me as me, as well as my drunkenness, and all of my faults. You made every effort you could to make me smile. You kissed me out of the blue, which is sometimes the best kind of kiss. Yet somehow, you couldn't keep me intrigued. You couldn't keep the butterflies in my tummy. You couldn't entice me to ditch my friends for you which I have done for others in the past ((even though that's not a good thing)) You couldn't keep me. But then again, I wouldn't let you......... Current Mood: pensive (3 Comments |Comment on this)